A new year has begun.  Time will tell how it will turn out.  A week ago my darkness returned.  Left me feeling disconnected from everything.  Life had been going pretty good, then all of a sudden it felt empty and without purpose.  I've somewhat recovered from it over the past seven days. 

With that being said Brittany has been on my mind the last couple days, quite possibly because of a song I came across while listening to music.  The song is titled "Come Over" and has been recorded by both Kenny Chesney and Sam Hunt.  The lyrics almost perfectly describe they way my relationship with her was.  "We don't have to miss each other, Come over.  We don't have to fix each other, Come over.  We don't have to say forever, Come over.  You don't have to stay forever, Come over."  I was always pleading for her to come over.  Then at the end "I told you I wouldn't call, I told you I wouldn't care, But baby climbing these walls gets me nowhere" is how I feel since.  I need something....anything to distract me from her.

 I dreamt about being with her last night, and to be honest I didn't want to wake up.  I don't remember anything about the dream really though, but I was happy.  That much is clear.