Hollow?...Empty?...I don't even know how to describe how I'm feeling today, because those words don't really even fit. Numb? Nothing quite fits. I've come across a handful of songs that have the line "I'd rather hurt, than feel nothing." That's almost the way I feel right now. I do feel like hurting myself. Nothing life threatening. I'm a cutter. For as long as I can remember cutting has always been a release from me. Once I turned 18 I started getting tattoos because the release was the same, however no one looks at you funny when getting a tattoo. No one looks at you with that look that says "what is wrong with you", or "why are you doing that to yourself?" You don't have to worry about someone butting in trying to figure out how to "help" you. I think I'm beyond help. I honestly don't believe that I will ever get better. I don't think I can get better. I don't even know what better would be. There are two people inside my head, neither of which is the person that I want to be. They are opposites. What makes one happy disgusts the other, what one accepts the other despises.
An unobstructed, unbiased look into my thoughts, feelings and outlook on life.