I've decided to go off my meds for a while.  I have a tendency to be more outgoing on them which I absolutely love, however the reverse side of that is that I seem to get anxious when I'm not doing anything. Makes it hard to relax most of the time.  I get restless, can't sleep and who knows what else.  Times like that is when my "darkness" (as my wife likes to call it) takes over.

Regardless, I think getting back to "normal" for a bit will take some of the heartache I've been feeling lately away.  Sadly the meds seem to be, for lack of a better term, addictive.  It's been a few days and I can feel the actual physical effects of it.  I have bouts of dizziness.  Not long ones just enough for me to momentarily lose my balance.  It's a very strange feeling.