I feel completely defeated today.
For a long time know, I've subscribed to my own theory that there are three types of people in the world that can best be described by a horizontal line.
The first type, the line is inclined. This type of person excels in most things that they do. They are outgoing, and for lack of a better term are always in the right place, at the right time and things seem to go their way.
The second type, the line is pretty flat. This person is complacent, content with the way things are, not motivated to change, and just happy to go through life.
The third type, the line is at a decline. This type of person has motivation to get things to change, however this change isn't always a good thing. They tend to want things to change so much, not being content in life that often times they are self destructive, making the wrong decisions in how to get their life to change.

Unfortunately for me, I seem to fall into this third category. I live my life, for the most part a good person, trying to always to the right thing. Be fair to all, and yet here I am, a real wreck, not happy at home, not happy at work, not getting anywhere closer to where I need to be.
If Karma were a real thing I think I would have to believe in reincarnation, and that I've lived my past lives as a horrible person, and am now having to deal with the consequences made in those past lives.

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