I can't put my finger on it, but something in my life, something inside me has changed, at least for now.  My feelings of despair are... missing.  I can't say they are gone.  Gone would indicate that they would not return, but for the time being I am... content.  Content in that I am almost happy in life.  Almost being the key word there.  I do feel that my life is missing something, something that I wasn't missing last year around this time, but I am content in other ways.  A blessing of sorts, unless it is to build me up only to thrust me down to places that I may never return from?  Time will tell.